Disorder.

Am I sane? Or Am I crazy? Should I stay or should I go?
The questions taunt my head...my brain.
I don't know whats bringing this all back up into the open.
But its strong.

I am KoKo. I am a young Teenage girl.

I don't know what I am.

Sane?-Crazy?

I don't know.

If you have read some of my writing,

You would prob. call me crazy.

I don't know if i am doing this because it helps me.

or bc i want to be sent away.

I just don't know.

Along time ago, A death happened.

It effected me bad.

I started to take a broken piece of glass across my wrist.

I got help from a therapist.

I lied to her though.

She asked me if I have ever wrote a suicide note.

I answered that with a " No".

The truth is...

I wrote one.

I kissed it.

I marked it with blood.

Then I tore it up into small little pieces.

and through them into the river and watched them float away.

From then on I just wrote and wrote ,

like poems and stuff.

Then, I started to get stressed about stuff and angry.

And it all began again.

Then and there I realized back then,

that i didn't do it just because i thought it would help,

I did it all the time because I was Addicted to it.

My cutting has become an Addiction

towards my emotions.

...

Now,

Lets ask that question again shall we?

Am I sane?

.or.

Am I crazy?