i dont know. 2nd blog.

I dont know.

I should be happy.

This is to much.

I have everything I want.

A boyfriend who I love.

-But who wont call me.

--causing stress and anger.

A amazzing cousin.

-who is just badass.

a bestfriend.

-who isnt here.

...

SO whats wrong with me?

This hasnt happened for a whole year.

why is it starting again.

the last time i did anything was about a month ago.

But the thoughts keep popping up.

But i am blocking them out.

I am having a blast with my cousin.

she helps me and she doesnt even know it.

I know I am crazy.

I am...

i know i should be sent away.

But no one else does.

bc i am so good at hiding it.

but its becoming really hard to.

Its stronger.

than before.

I just dont know what to do...

Should I be here?

Or should I be in a home?

Am I crazy?

.or.

Am I sane?